its the time of the snowed-in-season - matty

Thank God I have Ana helping me with this whole exhibition thing.

Usually I'm right on task with it, but, it just seemed to be so much more difficult this year than last.

I don't remember who's coming or going, who said they'd make it and who blew me off, I guess I'll know when I get there, and not before.

After this I just want to go...I don't know.

An old friend of mine invited me and some of my friends out to his ski lodge in Aspen for a week, which sounds very nice. I don't do alot of skiing, I know how, but I just...can't. I might as well try, though. The worst that can happen is that I'll fall down the mountain, again. That was only slightly terrible, compared to how I feel this party is going to turn out.

I'm not worried about the exhibit, as I'm sure I've said before. If people like my art, I'm glad, if people don't like it, that's fine, this is America.

I'm worried about whether or not they like the sweets that Ana prepared. Unlike myself, Ana's obsessed with people's opinions of her chocolate, her art. I don't want her to be sad or angry at me. I want her to be happy and have fun. She doesn't seem as if she's had real fun in public for a long, long time.

Of course that could be just her aloofness. She's very social, like me, but also very awkward, also like me. The difference is she doesn't react nervously when people touch her. She reacts either overjoyed or violently.

Junie reacts in stutters. But I said that, already. She doesn't like it because she says its slowing everyone down when she talks to him. Thats actually why I like her stutter, not in the sense that I like to see her struggle or anything, but everything moves so fast, and to slow down and listen is just...well...a blessing.

Yesterday was apparently Angel darling's (not her last name) birthday. I think she told me, but I like to avoid birthdays as much as possible, so I never said Happy Birthday to her.